Have you experienced any of these fears? Fear of being seen, fear of being judged, fear of being not loved, fear of being alone, fear of not enough, fear of the unknown. If you can relate to any of these, you are not alone. As Marianne so beautifully shares, what is just beneath your fear is your light. If you look deeper at your fear you may find it's not what you think.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” Marianne Williamson
I was first introduced to her quote twelve years ago from a yoga instructor I looked up to greatly. I was so drawn to Marianne's words. Could this is true? In a very deep place, I wanted to believe her words. However, I was not sure. Maybe for others but not me.
Fast forward many years, I now have a business where I get the privilege of witnessing people live their own truth. I have figured a way to combine my work as a social worker and yoga therapist. People have congratulated me on my success, and I am humbled and confused. Building a business has little pride internally, it is not who I am.My business and possessions mean very little to me. What I am most proud of is feeling my fears move through me, seeing clearly how closed hearted I was and where I did not show up as me. I am proud of hanging out in the unknown, doubt, and fear of being rejected. I then put my whole self into the world, and for that, I am forever proud of myself. Letting people see me is my greatest pride.
I began to recognize the tendency within myself to shrink – not from fear of failure, but from the fear of my light and power. The only way to be fully alive with my heart wide open was to shine into all of my brilliance.
I gave myself permission to be. I no longer apologize for being me and the good that I I do. Make no mistake: that is not what it means to be humble or helpful. Do not ask a rose to hold back its beauty, its openness and unfolding. Do not imagine that a rose might take the glory of the flower-bed by limiting its flourishing or success. Be free.
I say this to you, shine in all your brilliance – whatever that turns out to be. Please, by all means, dare in this life: not only so that you might actually taste real love and light in your life – but so that you might thereby inspire others to do the same. For this is how we are going to make any kind of lasting change in the world.
We must have the freedom and courage to shine if we are going to have even the hope of doing so. People will judge you and try to stand in your way, but persist. We need more brilliant, strong, intelligent, open-hearted, forgiving, beautiful, embodied, powerful, inclusive, non-judging, and loving people in the world.